June has past and July is here

This may sound unusual but this is so funny that I always wonder where to go and do. I feel daunted by the process of what I have got myself into that sometimes a writer needs some aspect of himself left as a secret or more so private. What am I saying? It is not as simple as one like me to say but to keep secrets is part of my life. I know the saying that keeping secrets will always come back and bite threefold – something like that.

Secrets are needed to keep my life going. To bear open oneself to anyone is not good for me. To see what happens after is not such an option, I found out. For me, my life seems to be open for criticisms and I welcome them wholeheartedly as a writer or author; mindful of the critics that is objective to me as a writer or author.

For a scale down of my life is riddle with pain as such that its better to shoot me like a wounded horse. Laughing out loud! Seriously, this is a part of me that is my life – pain management. It is plain as day and night with my pains but writing has and will always be the second most benefit to managing my pain. Writing is a medicine that gives you a high without the side affects.

Even writing this post has me thinking of writing this post and not about the pain. Yet it is not my secret and it is a part of me, which I like to keep secret for a bit longer. There is consequences that I know will happen and can’t share here.

As medical stuff occurs, such as increasing medication; I have had many things happened and very lately, I’m at an impasse of sorts. Just as June has gone and July  has been here for eight days, already! These changes I’m going through are just minor and hope to see bring new news as it comes. As it happens, I have sent a short story to a magazine here in Australia and my fingers are crossed. Funny thing, my hairs on the nape of my neck is on edge, I’ll just have wait for two months and half.

The dreaded word of all for writers is Rejection. But before I go on about it, I have been on the fence for a long time and with each rejection I had over three years and six months is very scary even for me. I started to feel that my kind of writing style is different and most of all has no sense in the writing world. It does feel a little disjointed as this post. I feel so… for sake of not swearing – why does it take so long? I’ll answer this later on another post.

As you noticed, I have been missed blogging so much that I have so much to say and not sure were to begin or start, thus the title of the post. I have been on edge for almost a year, especially when you think of a financial year. Well as I said, I missed blogging, this post is just a big one. When I have been in the clouds of darkness for so long that one forgets things and need to return to the light of day to understand oneself a bit more than receiving an email to a comment which turns out to be a news story.

That email I received was such that I spammed it and deleted it. Please note; any comments that shows news as comments, buying things or stories will be marked as spam and be deleted immediately. I just want to be as social as any blogger out there in this web-way I call the internet.

One last thing, the annual inaugural show day of my home town has just been another success. Also close to my home town is a city that has its race day – 400 v8 super-cars. As I sit here writing this post, I feel so relieved that another post is written. I hope more posts comes like this one. Finally, just have a wonderful day/night in this world we call home.

Update

Well I hope you all had a good start to New Year and had a safe one. I know it is March and I have missed January and February. Well it was just as I prepare for a new story that I end up in hospital again for the same abdomen pain. Gallstones playing up again! Second time and hopefully I can get to see the specialist soon. Its been a lovely beginning of the year and with the gallstones is a little set-back, I have a few things to do to bring the website up to my wishes. Note the changes of the Homepage.

As you may not be aware of, I had another set of attacks during the middle and the end of February, which made me stay in hospital for three days. Another attack and waiting for a specialist in a public system in Australia is like a third world country. I was emptying my bladder with the bile from the gallbladder – I thought I had urine infection – that is how bad I got. Lucky I had hospital cover and with it I got to see a specialist and then went to have an operation in the beginning of March. I am getting better as I recover from surgery and its much better than having pains in the stomach. Gallstones are varied in sizes and it depends on the amount you have. Some people have three large stones however my gallstones were a combination of ten cents size and many smaller ones – the smaller gallstones are like cat-litter. My gallbladder was full with multiple of cat-litter like stones/gravel and some look like sand, now but I must say there is also bile in the bottle I got from the surgery.

As March has six days to go, I have to wait and see what the specialist says in April. As you might not know that as I write this a Tropical Cyclone is coming through a little late though, but we are prepared and resilient as ever, which the news reports from the Bureau of Meteorology is expecting to reach a Category 4 when it reaches land on Monday morning. Currently its at Category 1 and intensifying and I’m ready for the cyclone.

My next venture is to complete a course that I’ve been doing and hopefully finish before my deadline. As I research, hang on! What do you mean research? Well I do research for bizarre theories and such; the flat earth scenario is just one of the many topics I like. As you know that Terry Pratchett did a concept of a flat earth like world called The Discworld Series. Okay I’m not Pratchett but his concept, to me is a logical one(okay not as logical but more comic). Comic Fantasy is Pratchett’s genre and no way can I do it that way. I have a concept of an idea but the research needs more scope and world-building.

This flat earth story I have in mind, I need to research from December 1 to September 30 that is researching on and off for ten months. October will be in the first two weeks, I would plot in my mind, I just read the notes I make and/or the print outs from researching – depends how I feel at the time. Spring clean my room and November 1 comes that starts Nanowrimo. I do the research to understand the topic and understand the planning of such a big project. This time I’ll be doing something very new and different, which I will do is plan an outline of the 50,000 word novel and see if I can follow my plan.

And there is more… I cannot tell you just yet but just watch this blog or homepage to see what is coming.

NaNoWriMo, Update and Season Greetings

Now that NaNoWriMo is already over, I have more time to get back to this site and my other website.  As for the NaNoWriMo, I only meet just under 25,000 words, not the full amount of 50,000 words. Started of really good like the hare but after the last post, life had played its ugly head by putting obstacles which stressed me out. As I thought to write in the third week, it was even worst and even the fourth week had another of those mind blocks which we writers call writers’ block.

Would I go on to complete?

Well the easiest answer is no with a big but… I must say it is a very controversial piece of writing that could inflict panic and I would not do it to the readers. It has a lot of religious, and symbolism of a one sided information at the moment but to go further would destroy the fabric of the universe.

Would I sell this story of 25,000 words?

This is without a doubt an easy answer – NO. As it is without edited… No again. Never ever. However ask me in another year and even then I know my answer, it will be a big fat No.

Update

As this is my second post and with some changes are happening. My webmaster has advised a little patience for he will get through the whole website with new pages as he gets through each page. He hopes to be done before Christmas Eve.

He won’t like me as I put my editor and proofreader hat on. He will hate me but we do get on well together. Also he is not the only one who wants a holiday for the Christmas and the New Year. Of course, the time looks like we both have about 8 or 9 days left to Christmas Eve. As they say no rest for the wicked. Laugh out Loud! Indeed!

I will be doing some re-organizing of my life as we speak, and doing a few changes on my timetable for 2017, to get more done more on time. This is so I can make a plan that for 2017 goes my way the plans I have for this site. My webmaster is happy with me and he is happy to do what he is told. I will have some contingency plans if life decides to bring a curve ball… well, a lot of curve balls.

I’ll have a plan for this site and the other website as well. Oh by the way as you can see the change theme for Christmas Month. There will be a few theme changes during the new year. It is my webmaster and I looking at themes and such and deciding which I prefer.

One week in bed did not help at all. As I like to look back to the year I had, and I know it was as crazy as donkey who does not want to move. In a way that is and was my year. January to June, my mum had surgery because she had a dark growth and could not distinguish whether it was attached to the Fallopian tube. Mums recover was an important but anxiety came to play – and getting sick also carried forward til about June with her foot and shoulder pain. Of course during that month, mum has been noticing some problems with my dad and in July he went to see an Urologist and some tests, then into surgery for enlarge prostrate. Oh the year before he had a colonoscopy done which found a nodule. Mum had recover sort of okay from her surgery and dad had some complications which took longer to heal. As I had been okay during the year, but may be I felt more tired than usual because of helping my mother as best as I could. I think by mid September when I ended up in hospital for severe pain in the stomach. During my two-day stay in the hospital, I had passed a stone and did a CT-Scan with a solution which can see if you have a stone in the kidney or anything else. Well I have a inflamed gall-bladder.  November is party month for me and last up to January but it is toned down, and Nanowrimo as you know from the above. December 5th to the 11th, was my week where I had been sick with the common flu and in bed for my legs pain.

Mum has another problem and at the moment she is having tests and such also in the new year. I’m looking forward (not) to more tests in the new year to see if my stomach is the problem instead of the gall-bladder. I have had an episode for a half an hour with pain in my stomach. Either way, I expect to have surgery in the new year. Well an upper endoscopy first to see if something is in the stomach. Then will see what happens next.

On the writing front, it has been not so good at all and I wish to have a better year next year. Seriously with all the goings on with Mum, Dad and I this year, my concentration on writing has left the building and went to outer space. Writers have a second voice in their head, well I do and its the muse and sometimes its the monster. With this the connection between this muse/monster is sometimes on a thin plane of existence. The psychological aspect I call the muse/monster is a metaphor which in itself is the entity that bring writer’s block.

Last but not least, the year that was, was not better however, I like to look on the bright side of life. So as this will be the last post for the year – okay second post for the year – this is because I have changed hosting services. I have other posts that I am looking at to edit them and will have a page that deals with my archive posts from 2016 to 2013. Of course 2016 is the less posts done then 2015.

As I look to this weekend, I think I will have a good busy one and low key. On the twenty-third of December will be the webmasters knock off date and returns around the eight of January. I’m looking at the twenty-fourth at lunchtime, I have a few thing before I go to celebrate Christmas also Boxing Day. Then working on a story for the new year. Then new year eve and new year holidays and the 2nd 0f January with a day off, this holiday will bring the new year like it was not here. After the third of January, will be back to normal.

Well signing off with this:

Season Greetings for all who believe in Christmas and those that do not celebrate because of your different beliefs, know this is my hope that you have a good day and be happy for being alive. I know there are a few peoples who will have some loved ones not here for Christmas, I wish you a prayer and continue with the beauty of Christmas magic. It is this magic that brings people together and love Christmas and have peace on this world for just one day. Yes there is beliefs that does mention peace and I hope everyone have a peaceful day. The biggest thing is to have a safe one.